I messed it up
I did my best but sometimes that’s not quite enough
Siena says it’s not my fault, but I don’t know
I moved too fast and when it came time I could not let go

And I try to explain but I can’t spell the words right
It’s a useless machine, it’s a black car with no headlights
And I try and try to fall asleep
Cause things feel fine inside my dreams most of the time
I can’t tell the difference

And what a waste
A hundred days and change, I threw it all away
With all the progress that I made, I messed it up
And when the bed is empty, why do I wake up
If I just think about the different ways to die?

And I try to explain but I can’t spell the words right
It’s a useless machine, it’s a black car with no headlights
And I try and try to fall asleep
Cause things feel fine inside my dreams most of the time
I can’t tell the difference

My head’s got a feeling, but what does it mean?
I stay in the water, I never feel clean
If I can’t find meaning then why should I dream?
Oh, who would design such a useless machine?
My body is broken, I can’t even eat
When the going got tough, you decided to leave
So why keep on going if I can’t succeed?
Oh, who would design such a useless machine?

But enough’s enough
Because there’s no one else to pick the pieces up
And I’ve got nowhere else to fall
Because I’m spending too much time asleep
Cause things feel safe inside my dreams
But there must be a difference between the ceiling and the sky

And I try to explain but I can’t spell the words right
It’s a useless machine, it’s a black car with no headlights
And I try and try to fall asleep, but I can’t outrun anything
Or anyone till I run out of life
And that’s the only way to die
And that’s the only way to die
And that’s the only way